In the midst of the great economic catastrophe of 2008-09 I asked myself the same question. I enjoyed my career at the bank, had obtained certain successes, and despite the huge stresses and precarious markets, thought the future bright. Yet for months I was obsessed with this question of how the sacrifices I was making for my career were helping anyone or serving a larger purpose. Maybe I was feeling this way because I was in the wrong vocation? Was I supposed to be a priest instead? Mass was helpful, and I had time to think about this question driving home at night, but I never had enough time to truly reflect.
Fr. Jim gave us plenty of quiet time to pray and enjoy the beautiful scenery around Notre Dame. We had Mass each day and read excellent reflections on discernment. He also brought together various young Holy Cross priests and seminarians to chat with us about their vocation stories and answer some of the questions we had. I was struck by their frankness and the joyful tone they all seemed to have. On Saturday night we walked together around St. Mary's Lake to the Grotto at ND to pray a rosary. Somewhere during that cool summer night's walk it struck me that this was the first time in a very long time I had gone for a walk in nature and let my head clear. It was exactly what I needed to give my soul some rest and quiet to actually listen for the answers to the questions I had been asking.
Mr. David Halm, C.S.C. is preparing to profess his Final Vows on September, 13, 2014. He will be ordained a transitional deacon the following day, and will be ordained a priest in the Congregation of Holy Cross in the spring of 2015. He has been assigned to serve at St. John Vianney Parish in Goodyear, Arizona during his diaconate year.